A Grim Realisation...

It's always a bitter pill to swallow when you realise what a poor example of the Christian faith you truly are.
Alot of my faults can be traced back to my non christian upbringing. My family is non christian (which makes then inherently evil, my younger brother dresses in black and has piercings). I struggle with so many things my lack of maturity in my faith is one of them. I try so hard to be as cool as all the grown up Christians I meet but I just slip back into my deviant and disgusting ways. Such foul and filthy things include use of words like 'arse' in playful banter, this is unacceptable. Other unacceptable and shocking things about me include being attracted to the opposite sex which is something that shouldn't happen at all under any circumstances until after I'm married- for shame. Yes I'm truly in a dilly of a pickle, I hope these confessions aren't too much to handle, here's a biggy, once in a while I indulge in having a beer! Sickening and Perverse I know. My faith simply isn't strong enough or mature enough to cope with all these adversities. Maybe it would be best if I was to give up. I need to reflect. Perhaps I shall listen to some music, REM maybe? I'll start with 'Losing My Religion'.